One thing that I’ve always dreamed about is to have a perfect female body, at least one that’s well proportioned enough so that I can look reasonably good walking along a beach wearing only a bikini swimsuit. (I would be lying if I tell you that I’ve never imagined myself as a bride on my wedding day, walking down the aisle wearing just a veil, stockings and heels, but that’s a whole other story for another time.) Which is why having this picture taken means a lot to me. As you can imagine, being a transgender woman who is not on hormone treatment means that the shape of my body isn’t quite “right.” But while I’m clothed, I can tuck and tug and pad and hide, and then choose appropriate clothes that gives the appearance of the female curves, once the clothes are off, and I’m wearing next to nothing, it’s not a very pretty sight.
Which brings me back to this picture. I can honestly say that when I had this taken, I didn’t feel good about myself…at least not about the shape of my body. But it turned out a lot better. I was able to hide my narrower hips, the edges of the breastforms, my bulging…umm…gut, and my make up looked okay too. And after a bit of digital retouching, even the flaws in my skin are gone too.
In case you are wondering, the picture was taken with the camera mounted on a tripod. There was no one else with me.
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